[shy]neux

her

2008-12-04T19:27:00.002+08:00

when we want to achieve happiness...we have to think about the risks and sacrifices that goes along with it.
i have thought about it.
and i know...

it will be worth all the sacrifice.

Q.A.I

2008-12-04T19:23:00.002+08:00

half of the reason why i came back to singapore for a short period. the other half...

need this now

2008-11-02T16:49:00.000+08:00

i need this now.

exams

2008-11-01T00:33:00.002+08:00

exams coming exams coming exams coming exams coming exams coming exams coming exams coming exams coming exams coming exams coming exams coming

oh wait..

that didn't relief my stress one bit...

argh wasted my time..moving on....

worker's quarters

2008-10-15T08:39:00.001+08:00

black is in.
so's white.

house

2008-10-13T19:26:00.000+08:00

i looked at this for a long time...
something about it i love...

sakura

2008-10-04T07:22:00.000+08:00

those times

2008-10-02T17:19:00.002+08:00

ord was a great period not only because it marked the end of military service.

the value of the friendships forged was immeasurable.

and it still awes me...

LoveNest

2008-09-20T02:02:00.002+08:00

greenraggedfields

2008-09-19T19:52:00.004+08:00

Toowoomba Flower Fest 190908

2008-09-19T19:52:00.003+08:00

I'm restricting myself to post only 2 photos cause i don't want a flowery bloomy pblog.
i prefer the manly kinda look yup?

2008-09-16T04:15:00.003+08:00

sometimes the green fields and blue skies just turn black and white.
sometimes i feel i'm never in control.
sometimes things just fade away.
and sometimes i fall.
in more ways than one.
because i'm always human.

i look over 2

2008-09-14T09:01:00.000+08:00

miss

sabah revisited

2008-09-08T15:08:00.001+08:00

....because someone told me i had too many animals in my blog.

you know who you are. :p

this day

2008-09-08T13:46:00.005+08:00

assignments keep on coming...

after all these years that sense of perfectionism always gets the best of me.
and i end up scrutinizing every detail until the last minute.

anyway.

check out the company i came out with for the report.

probably one day when i have a business i'll use this logo.
thanks photoshop.

and don't steal ya.

i purposely put 2 "for". :p

Dreamworld - revisit

2008-08-31T23:58:00.002+08:00

aha...more animals from Dreamworld...

caught you

2008-08-28T20:58:00.002+08:00

a tale of 2 singaporean guys' attempt to catch an australian mouse.
or should i say a 'tail'.

haha~(lame).

well, guess who came out tops.

haha~(oh yeah).

Dreamworld

2008-08-06T06:54:00.002+08:00

UQ - The beginning - Arrive 1940

2008-07-08T18:52:00.002+08:00

Some pictures i took to give a a better picture of the place where i'll be living at for the year.

mountain from afar

2008-06-30T11:45:00.001+08:00

hills of borneo

2008-06-30T11:32:00.001+08:00

zen mountain

2008-06-30T11:13:00.002+08:00

if you're wondering, this "totem" isn't natural.

not done by me too.

labourman

2008-06-30T10:53:00.003+08:00

one of the men who climb up and down the mountain everyday, bringing goods up to the lodge.

14 june 08 - 18 june 08 : Mt Kina with Chewy

2008-06-29T19:53:00.003+08:00

I came back from Mt Kinabalu the other day and decided to look through my older posts and one of them stood out for me.

It was dated 1st july 2006. 2 years ago.
"this day"
"things i'd do with my NS pay"
"priority number 8 - Mt Kina"

i guess i've fulfilled that...

It just struck me how much i had wanted to experience climbing up this mountain.
Frankly, it truly had been an incredible experience but on the other hand, i wouldn't say it was the most unforgettable or that it would be a key point of my life. no it won't.
However, it just amuses me how life could go one full circle and at the end, whatever you have dreamt before or whatever that mattered to you before, arises from its dormancy and rings you in the head again. It certainly proves to me that desires can sometimes become stale and dusted.

But it will never go away.

dusted

2008-06-18T23:31:00.001+08:00

let's do our part

2008-06-12T01:32:00.003+08:00

what i used to be

2008-06-12T01:15:00.000+08:00

i look over

2008-06-03T10:04:00.002+08:00

10 sen Ikan Rebos

2008-05-19T23:33:00.002+08:00

chek jawa 110508

2008-05-11T13:39:00.002+08:00

The sea hare and carpet anemone.

Another fruitful trip to Chek Jawa. Hope i could start guiding soon. There's still alot to learn cause the biodiversity here is incredible.

sheesha

2008-05-04T10:37:00.001+08:00

alone

2008-05-01T19:02:00.001+08:00

i will ride

2008-05-01T19:00:00.002+08:00

ubin.random

2008-04-27T22:53:00.000+08:00

ubin. bumboat portside

2008-04-20T11:38:00.004+08:00

voodooball

2008-04-06T13:14:00.001+08:00

voodoo ball in hortpark. there's even a monster at the background.

odd love

2008-04-06T12:51:00.001+08:00

kinda square

2008-04-02T01:36:00.002+08:00

one of those pictures i think would be ok for advertising material... haha.

with good friends out fishing at night... camera in hand... whatdya know... :p

the sleep project

2008-04-02T00:56:00.003+08:00

one of the current series i'm hoping to try is "the sleep project".

basically all and everything to do with shut eyes i'll be attempting to showcase it in this series. night as well. inspiration basically from the streets at night so more would be coming from all around singapore after the sun has set.

This is the first one and as you can read, i typed tespot as its pre-title. ThESleePprOjecT. get it?
and this one entitled CatPOT. C(at)pot, get it? :p

This one dates earlier than the bamboo picture previously. in fact, this is the first photo i "commissioned" from my Canon 350D. faux lomo-ed it as well. i'm hoping to get myself better and faster lenses because it isn't easy doing night shots. it is a definite infinitely interesting experience doing it in the secluded and lonely streets and it allows for quiet contemplation as well but sometimes getting the right mood for it can be quite tough.

as for this one, it isn't really a night shot but i couldn't resist the cute cat.

"faux lomo"

2008-04-02T00:36:00.005+08:00

this will be the start of many. i'm still thinking of whether to publish the photos in flikr.

anyway~ got a few personal photo series i'm trying to do. been doing some trial and errors as well and practising my post processing with photoshop.

for this one, it would be part of my own group of photos i call "faux lomo". i'm not intending to put it in a series because i can sense that a major part of my photo-taking would be done the faux lomo way.

what's faux lomo? i'm not sure if anyone else has coined this term but i named this after being inspired by lomography. lomographs have that vintage vibe to it and personally i feel it adds punch and depth to photos.

faux, being false. and lomo, for lomograph. took awhile to get the best steps to photoshop photos this way but think i finally got it. might improve more with more experience but for now i guess i'm satisfied.

one year on.....

2008-04-02T00:29:00.000+08:00

new phase begins now...

2007-02-19T01:30:00.000+08:00

the wings given to you.
you flew above,
only to pluck them off your back.
to fall beyond the ground.

this day

2006-11-18T12:06:00.000+08:00

it's been awhile.

i hadn't had the inspiration to write anything all this while. guess army really makes you feel dumb.

i've lost track of news. in fact i've lost track of everything.

and every book out day is the only motivating factor that keeps me going on and on. can't think of commissioning right now cause it's further than hell. i'm not even sure i'll get through this in one piece. hell.

Man

2006-10-07T07:00:00.000+08:00

wait a while for the sun to rise again.
fallen so far off the horizon,
and crawling it's way back to us again.
slowly but surely.
relieving the tension.
seething in my vein.
it's in our eyes, if we could see.
we are faithfully human but we couldn't even pretend to be.
we need heaven.
we are human.

with every sense of direction.
no, we're not the way we should be.
He gave us thought and we covered it
with a veil of darkness so we feed our own
emotion.
look around you to know what was creation.
and look at our hands and dare say we could create.
from nothing?
we run and we seek a shelter
find a hole and go into hiding.
are we as strong as we think.

then why do we have to wait for the sun?

this day

2006-09-17T21:28:00.000+08:00

be right back.
in 3 weeks.

meow...

this day

2006-09-11T23:39:00.000+08:00

my laptop gave me "'operating system not found" 5 weeks ago so i'm not gonna give you any visuals for the time being.

think my whole lot of digital pictures have been erased. i hope not. i'm not even sure how my laptop's doing in the service centre.

i should have bought a portable drive long ago.

serve me right.

this day

2006-09-07T21:56:00.000+08:00

ho sey. it's over. now for the new shit.

it's something like waking up from a bad dream. somewhat along that line. looking back, it seemed to have passed so quickly, yet i'm still remembering those days when i would be whining about how time seem to crawl.
i'm thankful though that it ended without me needing a wheelchair halfway.

now how do i summarize that whole experience. sitting down here in this moment, reflecting on the past weeks, i'm coming to realize that somehow nothing overly exciting happened during training. but comparing myself to the rest of my mates i get this feeling that these unexcited, uneventful, tasteless feelings are just coming from my own uninterested self. i think there is some kind of debate going on in my head asking me whether what i'm doing is the best way to serve the nation. the nation benefits from many of the things that we do, whether it is economically, or politically, etc, that it creates a huge complex "web" of interlinked situations and each one ultimately leading to the phrase "serving the nation". i am thinking that the weeks before the training were more exciting. and i am thinking that the weeks before the training, i was also serving the nation in my own way. it's hard to give a 100% when you're not motivated. and i know that throughout that whole experience i had red-alert levels of motivation.

but maybe i need to change my own thinking. gotta keep myself motivated for the coming months. i foresee tougher days and sleepless nights. i foresee aching muscles and bleeding skin. i foresee heavy breathing and a pounding heart. and i hope i'll emerge from all that in one piece.

this day

2006-08-09T13:05:00.000+08:00

this is crazy. i can't taste freedom anymore. 1 year 9 mths more.

this is crazy.

this day

2006-07-06T15:10:00.000+08:00

and so it has come to pass...
the last day before the day.

gonna be the last entry before entering.

feeling rather...default?
in other words, blank.
well maybe im partly sick cause flu is hitting on me again.

flu flu go away...
come again another day

so i'm resigned to sleeping at home and resting and recovering for tomorrow.

no world cup final for me.
no more parkway parade.
no more old chang kee...
no more camps...
no more MP library...
no more climbing...
everything no more!!!!

bah~

and when i heard you were coming...
i remembered how your eyes looked
as i drowned in that sweet sensation.
so beautiful like the night,
stars over in the heavens
glittering like the snow in winter morning.
and i wished i was the darkness,
and you were the light.
and you would open your arms out wide,
and overcome,
me.
in this solitude,
i'm sailing over a motionless sea,
and in the tranquil breeze i looked upon my reflection
on the crystal surface.
i'm still in love with you.

"light" ~ syaiful

2006-07-02T21:58:00.000+08:00

black rose.

this day

2006-07-01T07:22:00.000+08:00

55 loud sighs after another camp.
the camp could be excellent rather than OK if the kids would have been a little bit more receptive and cooperative.
but it's done and over with.
and i'm just bloody happy.

on the way home i was wondering.

what am i going to the with the pay from National Service?

then it occurred to me....

hey i'm forced to go,
but i get paid.....
maybe if i used the money to get the things i've always wanted,
the equation would be more like this..

one unit negative (forced to go) plus one unit positive (pay) plus one unit positive (radical fantastic bombastic stuff)....equals...one unit positive!!!

so now, i've realised...
i have to plan now.
there are some things that i've wanted to get so long ago but it was just that there was a grand canyon sized hole in my pocket, and now that i can get them, i need to plan which to get first.
the money's not much but if i saved up and not use the money for the 1 year 10 months i'd probably be able to buy 15 laptops.

but that's not what i want.

so currently, my list of priorities goes like this:

1) one metal recurve bow plus arrows (around $400-$600)
2) one DSLR Canon camera plus macro lenses (around $3000 - $4000)
3) first-aid course
4) kayaking level 2 course
5) rock climbing level 2 course
6) boardsailing course
7) sailing course
8) Mt kinabalu trip

now did i miss out anything...

2006-06-25T21:08:00.000+08:00

your friendly neihbourhood tuk-tuk driver man.....trust him...at your own peril...wahhahahaha (this laugh is suppose to sound evil)!!

this day

2006-06-25T00:03:00.000+08:00

right, so NS is inching closer and closer.
i'm imagining a wall at the distance...yes, a wall.
and it has legs!
oh boy...
a couple of legs in fact, and they're marching closer and closer to me.
the wall is made up of those old reddish-brown bricks you'd find in those old cottages in the movies and it's covered with moss and dirt.
and pasted on it, one big poster.

NS!!!

ok so 'm being lame.
but you can't blame me right? the period of permissible lameness is coming to a close.
so give me some space here.

2006-06-21T15:38:00.000+08:00

behind the gates.

2006-06-21T15:09:00.000+08:00

3 towers.

2006-06-21T14:58:00.000+08:00

offering.

2006-06-21T14:55:00.000+08:00

river drift.

sleepless in bangkok

2006-06-21T13:41:00.000+08:00

Group tours aren't my thing. you get pushed around alot and you feel there's little time for anything. a holiday should be a time when you can just lay back, forget about time, and do what you want. yeah didn't really have a "wow" time. and yeah i'm back from thailand.

if there's one naaiizz quote i'll take from my trip, it's this "cheap thing no good, good thing no cheap". true in many ways but i don't think it applies to beach rd. hahz. that's one place you get cheap and good at the same time. mostly.

some things i don't like buying cheap: i don't buy cheap watches because i don't want to be late; i don't buy cheap shoes because i want to walk; i don't buy cheap sunglasses because i'm on glasses; i don't buy cheap underwear because i don't want balls of fungi. someone reminded me i'd rather buy second-hand underwear than a second-hand DSLR. Cheap here refers to imitation aka pirated rather than cheap as referred to in the dictionary. my rationale for the previous x2 sentence. i'd rather buy second-hand underwear rather than a second-hand DSLR BECAUSE firstly, a second-hand underwear is way cheaper than a second-hand DSLR. secondly, i wouldn't buy a second-hand underwear from someone who has a history of viral infection leading to shrivelled balls or fungi infested crotch leading to toadstools emerging out from what used to be favourable areas or mycelium covered "things". thirdly, compare the 2 items. $1.50 second-hand underwear which has been used for 2 years. $800 NIKON D50 which has been used for 2 years. hands down i'll grab that underwear first. an electronic item for me, has a lifespan of 5 years. splurging $800 on it isn't worth it i think.

anyway, i compare bangkok with an old antenna tv showing a war movie and the antenna gets a bad reception and the screen goes all flickering and noisy while you still get the snippets of war in the midst of the noise and flickers. get it? in summary i wouldn't live in bangkok for 2 straight weeks. yeah it's the best shopping area alright. but all that business and traffic and smoke and movement makes me a little nauseated. a little city sick if i could use that word.

and the hotel in bangkok was displaying signs of ageing. water pipes were making noises at night. so i couldn't really sleep well. refer to title.

and i realised parasailing isn't as exhilirating as i thought. playing a soccer game would give me a thrill factor of 3/5. rock climbing would give me a thrill factor of 3/5. white water rafting would give me a thrill factor of 3.5/5. winning anything would give me a thrill factor of 3/5. but parasailing? i must say it'll go down to 2.5/5. it's just something that you can imagine. you see, when you imagine, you get to see it visually. and you can't feel it. before my ascent, i imagined it, parasailing and seeing the boat infront of me and i thought it must feel "whoa!". but during the actual thing, it was exactly like i imagined. exactly. just visual and no feel. i'm floating on air and i see the water below and the boat in front circling and that's it. so at the end i was just "oooooh kay~". oh well.

the tuk-tuk ride was better. it was thrilling because i was always suspicious with the driver. i couldn't believe he was an honest guy (...prejudice, me,....bloody hell). ok here's abit for you to think about. he goes asking stuff and trying to be friendly (i think),

" so, how long, the flight...singapore to bangkok?"

"erm, 1 hour... and 45 mins." (using my fingers for added visual comunication aid)

a few minutes later..

"there tuk-tuk in singapore?"

"no...got trishaw...cycle cycle" (hands doing cycling action)

10 minutes later

"my family in singapore you know. she fly here every month visit and then go back"

"oh really? i have friend...school in singapore but come back thailand for university"

"oh..ah..."

ok now, if you have a family in singapore, why ask how long was the flight? fishy fishy yes? i thought with a family in singapore he would at least be competent with the details of singapore even though he has never flown there right? i thought he was either lying to me about the family or he was also trying to test my honesty of telling him that i was from singapore. and the ride was 20 baht. it got me smelling tunas and salmons from the start. that's like one singapore dollar. i was imagining him taking us to a quiet corner and taking out the knife and asking for our money. and along the way i was flexing my muscles abit with the hope that he would catch a glimpse of that "i am not to be messed with" image and get intimidated. well, the robbery didn't occur. so maybe it worked? haha...

so thank God i'm back safe and got slightly more than 2 weeks more before NS. am gonna go gym and swim often, ring me up if you wanna join.

before NS, i'm going to reach this:

20 pull-ups in one go.
10.15-10.00 minutes for 2.4km run.
2 laps (50m + 50m) without stopping for swimming.

pray for me please?

ok the next few pictures would be from the thailand trip.

i need a DSLR....

2006-06-15T22:13:00.000+08:00

something signifying relationships. just think about it. circles symbolising relationships.

this day - graduation

2006-06-15T21:17:00.000+08:00

i can't understand.
having problems posting an artwork.

sigh.

i got a list of stuff i can't post and i think it has something to do with the format.

but anyway...

school is over, graduation over and done with after days of brooding over the impending surge of nervousness that will emerge from beneath the stage from which i have to give my "beautiful" speech.
and the nervousness didn't materialise. thank God.
if i had it my way, the speech wouldn't be edited and it would go something like this.

me: graduates oi!!!

audience: OI!!!!!

me: graduates oi!!!!

audience: OI!!!!!

me: i say stylo you say milo. STYLO!!

audiece: MILO!!!

me: STYLO STYLO MILO!!

audience: MILO MILO STYLO!!

me: excellent!!

audience: WELL DONE!!

me: well done!!

audience: EXCELLENT!!

me: Congratulations graduates. Thank you for your attention. Let's work for world peace!!

yep, i would have loved doing that...but well. It's not my grandpa's school.

and i want to take some space on this blog to thank my coursemates for everything.
dudes and dudettes, thank you so much. 3 years have gone past so quickly. i've learnt alot from you guys, so thank you. couldn't include you guys in the speech so this one's for you.

and everything went well. was lucky the audience was looking on the screen instead of piercing their eyes onto mine while i was giving the speech. that would have transformed my legs to jelly and make me use my mutant powers turning everything to dust.
you guys were lucky!

ok the sad news before i end.

no more free gym.

(grr....)

this day

2006-06-08T00:01:00.000+08:00

ok it's actually this day and a few days before.

how to be smooth with the interviewing media
the shy\/neux guide.

1) Think of possible questions that will be asked and think thoroughly for the answers.
For example: "Why did you choose this course of study?"

2) They will not specify the type of media so be prepared for all kinds of media such as television, radio and newspaper.

3) Wear presentable clothes and avoid accessories that make you look like a "mat" or "beng" and avoid hairstyles that make you look like you just got out of bed.

4) Smile and don't look like you've got a rat biting your toe. if you're wearing oakleys', try to make your air time look like an advertisement.

5) Don't be surprised if they shove a camera in front of your face and don't even think of running to that nice and breezy exit door, especially when you're answering the questions. There is no way out.

6) If the media is in your mother tongue, practice it beforehand to avoid looking like a duck that's trying to chirp.

yep... the 6 things i did not do.

i've always been media-phobic and the experience hadn't change me. my wish for the whole of singapore to blackout just before my face appeared didn't materialize...and all i could do was lie down on the carpet in a guinness world book of records winning contortion with my ears and eyes covered, cringing from my own face on tv.

ahh unmistakeable signs of media-phobia.

2006-06-03T20:50:00.000+08:00

"alternate self". a random picking of pictures. a pinch of emotions. half an hour later....this. something i did for myself, about myself. the journey of self-discovery can be therepeutic. there are so many faces to a person, so many personalities, sometimes you wonder which one is dominant.

surrendering to heaven

2006-06-02T11:44:00.000+08:00

looks like we've dipped ourselves in
overwhelming blessing,
and you did nothing,
nothing worth mentioning.

bathed in splendour
empty,
your lingering demeanour
had you floating
in subliminal wonder.

scenes of the past,
have woken me.
caressing me.
broken me.
free.

breach these gates,
to a burst of elation,
this new sensation
to set us deep,
to set us deep in this motion.

what have we done before,
though i couldn't ask for more.
spring of solitude,
cascading into our sea.

we've been lifted,
without consent,
could we keep hovering,
and reassemble our intent.

scenes of the past,
have woken me.
and i'm broken,
set free!

breach these gates,
to a burst of elation,
this new sensation
to set us deep,
to set us deep in this,
in this motion....

guess i've stopped doing this in my other blog.
i'll just use this blog for everything.

if only you can hear this one with the music in my head.
add in the heavy guitars and meditative voice.
and abit of piano and slow drums.
echoing bells too.
and you got it right.

this day

2006-05-27T23:57:00.000+08:00

my eyes are heavy.

i'm still gonna write in case anyone thinks i'm dead already.
no time to take pictures. no time for anything.
i'm seeing my colleagues more than i see my parents.
and that's a sentence from a colleague.

which sums up everything.

and i hate primary school.
the kids aren't exactly camper material.
how do you become a trainer for kids who don't even want to listen.
if only i could show them what life is about.
but then i don't want them to lose their childhood.
but right now, their childhood is runing my life.
that's an exaggeration.
i know you know what i mean.
if there is any kid that's reading this, take note.
please listen to your trainers during camp.
they wake up at 630 and sleep at 330 just for you.

OK?
alright.
ALRIGHT?
ok.

camps have gotten in my head.

2006-05-18T20:15:00.000+08:00

the chilli story: part 3

2006-05-18T20:14:00.000+08:00

the chilli story: part 2.

2006-05-17T22:00:00.000+08:00

the chilli story. for the times when i feel a little spicy. for the times when spice is nice. for the times when i got nothing else to do but stare at a pair of chilli padi(s) and say, "boys, you look like you've got a story to tell". don't bother asking me for the meaning of this piece. i'd just make something up and make you think i'm a genius. which i'm not.

this day

2006-05-14T11:16:00.000+08:00

i hope the whole world sees this.

PROTECT OUR FORESTS!!!!!

in the midst of dwindling natural resources such as fuel, many are forgetting that our natural forests is as important as any natural resource.

think of medicine. think of the natural cycle of life. you're looking at something that has supported mankind ever since we have existed.

i won't go into details until i've researched further. but i think it's just plain common sense. everyone should practise abit of responsibility.

lets think more like tarzan. live with the forest.

ahh i'd love that.
now where's my jane.

2006-05-13T00:47:00.000+08:00

3 circles: disillusioned

2006-05-13T00:05:00.000+08:00

reduce and re-use... and of course, recycle old rejected photos. i just got no time to go out and take new ones... and no photo buddy as well...what to do.. This phalaenopsis sp. photo taken from National Orchid Garden.

this day

2006-05-10T18:01:00.000+08:00

back from a camp and im still wondering what had hit me.

deja vu~

was on the bus home when i realised there were snippets of moments that seemed like they happened twice.
or maybe it's just me thinking i'm getting psychic.

anyway~

from this point now, i'm giving my life a rating of 8/10.

sure there are things that still worry me but come on,
for every obstacles i faced there were always alternative paths which took me to somewhere better.
maybe i like looking to the positive. and i know i'm being patient with alot of things.
and i owe it to the time i sat down beside loneliness on bus 154 to school.
it came to me the greatest attribute anyone could have is patience.
not many would look at pain and hardship in the eye and say you won't bring me down.
even lesser are the people who would look at hardship and pain in the eye and say i'll walk with you and hold your hand cause it will make me a better person.

i'm on that mission.

just look at it this way. lack of patience cause distress.
tell me how can you have a perfect world?
now you inject abit of patience to the billions of people around the world and imagine the outcome.

back to the camp.

loved it. even though there was a constant claustraphobic feeling of 20 out of control children surrounding you and making some of the top 5 most irritating noises in Shy's Most Irritating Noise list, i loved it.

getting more of that soon so i'm gonna keep scraping my skin so that it'll grow thicker by then.

3 days 2 nights i haven't sat on the toilet bowl so i'm gonna do so now.

smellios~

2006-04-25T07:59:00.000+08:00

recollections, part 3.

baby rat that couldn't go on living in this world...

it moved me alot.

2006-04-25T07:56:00.000+08:00

recollections, part 2.

the alley behind the hotel...

2006-04-25T07:54:00.000+08:00

recollections, part 1.

it's a year after Sabah.

just some unpublished photos...

2006-04-19T21:32:00.000+08:00

oh yes i'm collecting tillies. just found out they call them tillies. weird if you ask me...

2006-04-14T19:55:00.000+08:00

doors 2: no residence

2006-04-12T16:58:00.000+08:00

doors: the light

this day

2006-04-10T23:22:00.000+08:00

life is full of waiting.

see, when you're waiting for something, nothing else can move on.

and that is exactly what i am doing now. waiting.

it gets irritating but there's nothing i could do.

and what's worse is that i feel uninspired.
i need a revamp.
i need a change of environment.
this is getting mundane.

this day

2006-04-02T21:59:00.000+08:00

Will initiate training programme.

flabs be gone!

NS here i come!

meh~

don't think they need horticulturists or landscapers in the army do they?

master camouflage(r)? (is there such a word?)
plant poison specialist? (oh cool)
jungle strategist? (even better)

and if it's the police?

plant abuse division? (whoopie)
plant poisons investigation? (possible)
Prisoners Gardening Programme supervisor?

I can't wait.

This Day

2006-03-31T00:08:00.000+08:00

TK Briyani is the best.
TK is the best.
TK OKK.

How lame. Though it is 100% true by my standards that TK canteen got the best food for its price. Cheap and good. How often do you get that?

Time to focus now. Focus the mind and spirit.
Significant things are going to happen.
Time to make it happen.

And i have to start on my quest to make myself whole.
Haven't been caring about that.
maybe i should. now?
arghh

this day

2006-03-26T09:10:00.000+08:00

finally saw the first signs of more rain to come.
the plants were dying.

weepie.

2006-03-23T13:38:00.000+08:00

"fishermen". Hauled in plenty of tamban from the east coast thanks to the advice of "cowboy". More than 40? 50? Didn't even bother to count. Got some naizz looking ridiculous tan marks thanks to the sun. Cowboy's bicycle on the background of the sea and approaching rainclouds; excellent. Something vintage about that bike.

2006-03-13T22:06:00.000+08:00

"sini-star : on the edge"..........for the world that's dying.......

2006-03-05T23:15:00.000+08:00

my first premature peanut. yes kiddies i'm still in touch with my inner child.

2006-03-05T22:42:00.000+08:00

sini-star

2006-03-03T22:37:00.000+08:00

"thank you".~etlingera elatior and syngonium podophyllum. an image drawn during a moment of inspiration for a particular project for the company. inspiration was the experience.

this day - that goodbye

2006-02-28T17:46:00.000+08:00

saying goodbye is one of the most difficult thing to say.

i guess i realised i was never a "goodbye" person.

just a "see you" guy.

maybe i'm always hoping to see someone again.
goodbyes should be reserved for the final second of life.
when you know you will never see the person again.
that is goodbye.

and yeah i'm hoping to see them around again.

see ya...

2006-02-26T21:28:00.000+08:00

east horizon

2006-02-24T21:55:00.000+08:00

Seeing Sabah - part 1 .......those were the days of a simple life.

this day

2006-02-19T20:02:00.000+08:00

and the sky was great
and the sea was... green.

hello to the guy in pink.
cycling so fiercely just to balance masculinity with that ghastly shirt.

hello to the rollerblading guy.
trying to challenge me.
so you think you can skate faster than i cycle eh?
trying to take over me eh?
aha i will always be faster than your
sorry,
inefficient,
sad little blades.

lick my wheels.

2006-02-15T22:40:00.000+08:00

whispers...

this day

2006-02-12T20:46:00.000+08:00

when you don't know how to rollerblade....

the worst time to learn is on the weekends.

the worst place to learn is a packed beach.

the worst pants to wear is a pair of jeans.

but i did it and i'm damn proud to be embarrassed.
yeah!

giggle somemore girls. you haven't seen me cycle.

2006-02-08T20:05:00.000+08:00

my own white space

2006-02-06T22:29:00.000+08:00

lady of the door~ shots taken from Kuala Lumpur. It's funny how you get inspired by the things you aren't familiar with...

2006-02-04T17:42:00.000+08:00

sweeeet chocolate melt

2006-02-04T16:37:00.000+08:00

toe-hair

2006-01-27T19:29:00.000+08:00

a dedication to all dads....love you

the second decade

2006-01-26T21:27:00.000+08:00

The best of 19.
Wish it'd come back.
Cause now's 20.
No more time to relax.

2-0
two-zero

my second decade has passed.
littered with highs and lows.
i'm old.
i feel old.
i'm old as old can be.

get away from me and leave me some space to be a grouchy old man.

grr...

2006-01-25T00:10:00.000+08:00

"effort"

this day

2006-01-24T19:50:00.000+08:00

she smoked sheesha on the seashore
she smoked sheesha on the seashore
she smoked sheesha on the seashore
she smoked sheashd ai ihr erj aspas
sh e o damieals oaspdjp j oaspj soadj

wow even my fingers got tied!

wanna hear the story about the girl who smoked sheesha on the seashore?
well she met the girl who sells seashells on the seashore.
and the girl who sells seashell on the seashore was very business-minded
so she came up with a business idea she thought was going to be the next big thing
so together, they sold that thing that was going to be the next big thing.
and that thing that they thought was going to be the next big thing
was smoked seashells on the seashore.
so together they sold smoked seashell on the seashore.

there you go.

another story for your grandchildren.

i hope it won't ruin their intelligence-

cause making this up sure ruined mine.

enjoy!

back to my report.